Positive Positive Posistive

Well today is my 3rd day taking soy. I have 2 more days to take soy. I hope that I ovulate around the time I would if I was taking clomid. But the one thing that I'm doing this time is thinking positive. Keeping an open mind and just clearing the mind of all my worries and stress. I have to start being positive and stop thinking negative. I use to be so positive when I was younger. As I got older I just didn't think nothing good would happen to me. Until I met my husband. He has brought so much good and positive thoughts to my life, yet I still think negative. I still do the what if's and I still think that something bad or something will never happen. I'm so use to something not happening. But, now that I'm trying to have a baby. I can't think like I have always thought. I can't just say let me have a baby. I have to prove to myself that I am ready for everything that I say I want. I have get my mind to be with my body as one. Right now I'm probably closer to that than I have ever been. I see the future with my mind but then my mind does nothing to help my body get the word. Well this time I'm going full speed and I'm not stopping until I have a baby. I'm trying alot of differnet things that I feel has helped me in the past and like always it will help with this. The one thing I'm most proud of is the fact that I have a husband to help me through all of this. Even though at times he doesn't understand exactly why I do something or why I must do it this way. He supports me and that is all I need.